Research Paper on Stress and Management

Intro: Due to this assignment I dove deep into what affects me every day and I found that the thought of entrusting myself to someone else petrifies me. Entrusting myself to build a safe structured life and be happy at the same time is something I can not comprehend. As well as not just entrusting myself but trusting others is what I struggle with a lot. In addition, my questionable inclination towards workers of the justice system I dare not trust any other government run corporations such as suicide hotlines and CPS. From stories I heard and experience I was not impressed with either organization. It does not matter what your occupation is, everything can be corrupt. When it comes to priests sexually harassing women to unprofessional government corporations it is a heinous reason why I refuse to entrust myself to others.

Physiological: The effects of me being uncomfortable to trust people that are meant to help their specialized training weighs me down. Having no comfort-ability with someone that is supposed to help me brings me an inability to ask for help. Last year our enforcement system gained a lot of attraction and not for good reasons. There became an increase in injustice over the black community due to the treatment they received and as a result many died from the hands of our law enforcement. As a result of hearing and seeing these stories I have no trust in our law enforcement, which truly is a shame because it is their job to keep me safe. Surprisingly enough I feel unsafe around police officers and i feel the Same emotions if any of my colored family or friends encountered them as well. According to US National  Library of Medicine National Institutes of Health, ”Victims were majority white (52%) but disproportionately black (32%) with a fatality rate 2.8 times higher among blacks than whites.”

Due to these results the system is shown that black people are targeted due to their race increasingly more than any other race. “The influence of possible armed victims  Most victims were reported to be armed (83%); however, black victims were more likely to be unarmed (14.8%) than white (9.4%) or Hispanic (5.8%) victims.” As a result when it does come seeking for help it builds a lot of anxiety because I do not feel comfortable with the people that are supposed to make me feel safe. However, I try to keep my faith in this corrupted system and hope that things will change for the better.

Interpersonal  Relationships: As a result to my challenges when it comes to entrusting employers I also struggle with trusting the people around me. For example when it comes to relationships I consistently think negatively especially If there is a possibility of them being involved in my future. Therefore, I push away creating a feeling of being lonely. I always view cute videos/tiktoks  of happy couple getting married or just sincerely enjoying their time together negatively. Most would automatically believe that they will be a happy couple together until their passing however my first thought would drive in the direction of, “what if they get divorced in five years” or “one will cheat on the other.” As a result I have a hard time seeing a happy outcome for anything leading to a lonesome mental pit. I am still lurking for a way to end this negativity however finding those rare healthy long lasting relationships do give me hope. They have been married for almost 19 years now and although they have their rough patches they truly are happy;or so what I believe. I find it helpful that if I see these kinds of relationships it will bring me hope that I can possibly have the same future. 

Cognitive:  The brain works on its own to identify activities, object uses, and more. Stated in a Lumen article,”Cognitive psychology is the field of psychology dedicated to examining how people think. It attempts to explain how and why we think the way we do by studying the interactions among human thinking, emotion, creativity, language, and problem solving, in addition to other cognitive processes…… organize thoughts and information gathered from our environments into meaningful categories of thought, which will be discussed later.”  For example someone working at a fast food restaurant is meant to serve/make an order because it is their occupation. In addition to their duties they also must bring a welcoming persona to make the customer pleased however, this isn’t always the case. Ever since I was able to take responsibilities for myself it has forced me to handle my own situations. Due to my age, elders in their occupation feel that they do not need to have manners and behave as if I were an adult. Knowing this concept, I act as if I were an adult and handle any bearing in a mature manner. This usually works because it shows that I wont tolerate being treated unfairly. However, apparently I come off rude which recoils the purpose.

Time/Self Management: Whenever I feel overwhelmed due to stress, time seems to be tenuous. Especially if I had an unresolved problem due to complications with relationships. I waste away with the time that I have rather than going on with my regular routine. When it comes to self management I am fairly organized with my schedule. I write out What I am going to do and when. This has helped me drastically especially ever since online school. Everything Is solely based on the computer and it can be fairly overwhelming. As well as managing time with school I self Manage with daily activities such as working out, studying for SAT’s, showers, and ect.

Emotional: A couple years back I had a friend that was in an unsafe environment in her household. Although to sacred to take action, she informed me and showed me her proof of the treatment she was receiving from her guardians. One day things got out of hand and as a result pleaded with me to call CPS for her. She felt comfortable at the fact that child protective services would come to her house because her guardians believed their neighbors saw the abuse. Therefore she was not scared that her guardians would believe that she had called for help. When I called and they asked for her and my information, and although I questioned myself why they needed my information. At the end of the call I made sure to ask, “can you please keep me confidential” and the operator responded “we won’t it is against our procedure to give any information to other persons”. After that statement I trusted their system to do their jobs correctly however a week later I learned they had sent CPS to her house. During that interaction the worker proceeded to inform her guardians that I had  made the report. As a result I was not allowed to speak or see my best friend of 7 years ever again. In addition they threatened to sue me. If they intended to sue me and my family I could face 6 months in jail. Nothing came out of the investigations and I was not surprised because the family has a nice house, food on their tables, and most importantly a persona of a healthy Christian home. It destroyed me not just because I lost my best friend but I thought I was doing the right thing. The betrayer I felt when I was told government officials went against their moral code gave me a reality check; everyone is human at the end of the day. Forgiveness is all one can do in this situation therefore I am working on forgiving the worker however never forgetting. 

School:  Suicide is the tenth leading cause of death in the U.S. today. On average there are 130 suicides each day. Many kids my age struggle with depression either due to grades or home situations. I have had plenty of friends get so low that they had to call a hotline. Due to this tragic consistency the government administered hotline was made for those who struggle with depression. A 24 hour hotline meant to prevent the callers to report about their struggles. The receiver is meant to provide the recipient comforting words and suggestions over the phone however it is not always as organized. According to the U.S. National Library of Medicine National Institutes of Health ”High quality evidence demonstrating crisis line effectiveness is lacking. Moreover, most approaches to demonstrating impact only measured proximal outcomes. Research should focus on innovative strategies to assess proximal and distal outcomes, with a specific focus on behavioral health treatment engagement and future self-directed violence.” Not only is it noticed that these hotlines are feeble but callers have told their stories of their experiences such as frequently being put on hold. Rarely did the callers find this helpful.

Occupational  Settings: At the moment I am trying to find a full paying job. As of right now I am Training a beginners volleyball clinic and I work with two other kids my age. Since they have been working there longer than I had, they have more authority than I do. As a result when I try to put in my advice, my comments about my opinions when it comes to the program do not matter to them. I have asked many times for the beginners sake to have fair placement of the player yet my voice seems to be a whisper to them. This treatment weakens my trust and respect for my coworkers which builds tension in a supposed to be stressful environment. Recently I have taken it upon myself to sit down with the head coaches and inform them of the wants and needs of the students I teach as well as my own opinions.